Thursday, September 20, 2012

Money

To add on to my last post... As I said before that was a confession to myself mostly but having written it out will hopefully prevent me from taking it all back and like the saying goes once on the internet always on the internet. So it's like a tattoo.
But yeah the problem I am having with money is I had a tooth extracted my 1st and 3rd molars back in january when my mom had a job and pretty damn good insurance. Well fast forward to july a week before her birthday they let her go and took away..well pretty much everything saying she didn't do her job and shit. I'll be honest...she didn't do her job...she did OTHER PEOPLES jobs..on TOP of hers a workload I feel she couldn't handle but did so without precision I am guessing. But here's the real doosey they had her train several people to do HER job. She knew what was going on my mother is perceptive but unfortunately business wise not smart because she did not look for another job even though she knew she should have. However she was and still is going to school for a BA in business.
Now with her still being out of a job that just leaves my father...who a few months back confessed to my youngest sister (who just recently turned 18) that he can't do it (support us) alone. Needless to say this coming from my FATHER whom out of my 19 years of living have only seen him cry ONCE and who's face never shows the slightest bit of any type of weakness known to man, SCARED THE LIVING SHIT OUT OF MY SOUL!
Anyway now here I am In tolerable pain from my impacted 3rd molar on my top right pushing against my other teeth and my second molar now without pain for 3 days after giving me hell for a month every night wondering how I am going to help pay if not pay for all of my important dental work.
The work i need done:
4 teeth extracted
3 wisdom teeth (2 of which are certainly impacted)
and 1 tooth (my 2nd molar on left bottom) I am positive is succumbing to infection.
2 implants ( 1 for 1st molar already extracted and another for the 2nd molar yet to be taken care of)
I remember my dentist telling me that it is better if I get it extracted to lower the risk of ANOTHER failing root canal which I had lived with for 7 seven years mind you it was infected for 5 or 6 of those 7 years but I did not feel anything because they had obviously taken away all nerves.
I wish i could've kept the tooth but I forgot to ask damnit all.
But I have much work left to do and for now my mom just wants me to get the rest of my wisdom teeth extracted to relieve my pain...
On to my other health problem since I have been waking up due to the excruciating pain in my lower left jaw I have taken I shit you not countless aleves and vicodins with NO PAIN RELIEF. I took them without caring for any serious setbacks that might occur..only to receive my new eyeliner after a friend of mine left to colorado on Tuesday take a nap and wake up with yet again I shit you not those damn eye boogers covering my eye making my vision blurry.
I washed it off and went back to sleep woke up the next morning BOTH of my eyes looked as if I had pink eye and more eye boogers (wtf is the scientific name for that shit?) I had slept all day after 5 pm (if one can call that all day) I just kept my sunglasses on because I was having mild light sensitivity I actually have photosensitivity but yet again only mild.
The i woke up this AFTERNOON with my eyes looking normal so i looked up and down to check and as I am looking down i notice red so I'm like oh fuck it hasn't cleared up yet and I pull my eyelid up to reveal what looks to me like several blood vessels broken in my eye. It looked pretty serious to me. I showed my mom who of course brushes it off my first reaction was to as her if it was because I took so many pills at once. Neither of us knew and still don't know.

I am now also having problems with financial aid... I own 1500 bucks because of something and I don't know why annnnd now I am on academic probation and receiving emails about me not going to that school anymore and I 'm thinking wtf said I wasn't going YOU are the ones that put me on academic probation and I don't even know htf that works. I have not talked to them I have been putting it off because I am afraid of what answers await my questions.
So any advice given will be greatly appreciated.



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