Friends Pissing Friends Off
To make a long story short… I wanted to talk to my friend
about something serious…It hasn’t always been like this in my house annnyway I
wanted to tell her how I was on the verge of burning the house to the ground
and crying my ass off while I was out for a walk… I told her to call my mom’s
phone if she was busy and couldn’t FT (Face Time) at the moment…I asked her
what time she got off of work... I think it’s normally at 9:15 or some crazy
shit like that. She never answered me but she called…so I answered and I was
talking and she’s laughing…so I stop and she says oh I’m sorry I'm listening go
ahead.. I’m all like ok yo so yeah BLAH BLAH BLAH*giggle* my face :o O.O and
I’m thinking WTF that was something serious so I got the feeling she was with
Mitch…Some guy she’s been hanging out with and sort of lying to me about in a
way… I’ve never met him...yet... anyway I’m not the type of person that wants
to bother someone with my sad, dreadful bullshit of a life if they’re having
fun...Cause I’m just gonna ruin it… But she tells me to keep going…I think I
was on the phone with her for 8 mins. of her GIGGLING ( I know what her LAUGH
is yo and she was giggling) I know she likes him and I get that what I’m mad
about is she’s lied about him more than once. Or she’ll “withhold” information
I don’t judge her but I do rant/lecture her…then in the end I'm just like it’s
your life your choice, whatever you do yo, be careful…
I just stopped pretended something happened and said I’ll
call you back yo… and hung up…that was Monday… anyway what was going on made me
cry so badly I stayed outside and started thinking(which is bad for someone
like me cause I can think TOO damn much and it can be dangerous no joke no
bueno yo) I was outside for 2 hours…my mom called her phone from my father’s
cellular devviiice and told me to come home cause she needed her phone so I was
like alright been there in a min. I got to my house sooner than I wanted to and
I found some chalk on our back porch (we have a middle school I used to go to a
billion years ago across the street and I go there all the time...it’s the
innocence of the place you know the whole reliving childhood memories thing) so
I went back and drew a few things… I was gone for like 12 mins… and I know this
because I listened to a song that was 12 mins. And it was over by the time I
got in the door…I gave her her phone and I thought I would be able to go back
out...NOOOOOO that’s wasn’t gonna fly because my dad didn’t go to bed like I
had thought was going to happen (I should’ve known better when he’s the way he was
that night he doesn’t go to sleep immediately) and in my house for SOME
PSYCHOLOGICAL reason my parents lock the doors…AALLLL THE EFFIN TIME YO! You’ll
see why this shit gets on my last mothafuckin nerves(in our apt we live in yes
I know I keep saying house but fuck off I don’t care any way the doors have two
locks that turn opposite each other so one is horizontal and the other is
vertical when locked or unlocked… it can get kinda confusing).
But anyway I stayed in the house for almost an hour waiting for
him to knock the fuck out so I can go back outside WITHOUT THE FEAR OF HIM
FREAKINGOUT I WAS LEAVING OR LOCKING MY BITCH ASS OUT THE FUCKING HOUSE!!! By
40 mins. later I had grown weary of waiting ,I left anyway… for 2 reasons
1: to not be in the house disturbing the people who slumber
with my incessant bawling
And deuce: to walk back and get the chalk I had forgotten
-_-“ yeah I left it there cause I cant remember shit when I'm singing out loud
apparently.. So I go back and couldn’t find the chalk..its a box full of fuckin
chalk… so I was like oh fuck no I'm not letting some kid with sticky fingers
get away with my stress releasers tha fuck I looook like..?! its got like 20
pieces of chalk and 2 smaller boxes of 12…that might as well be molded into 6 big
chalk things..anyway yeah that’s how many I had..or how full it was I should
say so I looked and it was on a table I left it on ahhaha duh me! Anyway I
grabbed it and started crying again so I sat down..but got back up and walked
home I said to myself ill come back later on tonight.. I don’t sleep so it was
gonna be hard..but yeah I go home thankfully I had my key uin my back poket
from the pants I was wearing I left them in there from previous excursions that
day I get to the door…its locked…so I try my key…the door sisnt open..in my
head I'm thinking this faded motthfu..did he really..just..damn I walk around
to my window that stays unlocked because I shit you not I leave the house at
all hours of the night yo..HOWEVER I forgot my window is hard to opem the
regular way…I tried to open it from the outside like the way inside and no
go….timmy didn’t like sushi cause that shit was thrown in my face like a big
ass HAHAHA YOU DUMB FUCK! SMH I sat there texted my mom,and posted on my
sisters FB wall…I went back to my drawing spot and stayed for 3 hours…it was
like 1 I think when I thought hello I can text my Bff (who was totally busy
earlier) and tell her to call my mom and ask to let my bitch ass in… I didn’t
have wifi and if its not obvious I don’t have a phone..i lost that bitch
somewhere in my room still haven’t found it…
I go back home and text her she
asks like 10 mins later ‘you want me to call her?’ Are you fucking serious…I
literally TEXTED HER IN PLAIN FUCKING ENGLISH “CAN YOU CALL MY MOM AND TELL HER
MY FUCKING DAD LOCKED ME OUT?” I took a
breath (that’s how mad/sad BEYOND ALL WORDS I WAS!) and said yes cause I
already tried texting her… 5 mins later my mom unlocked the door….she was like
I didn’t do it what happened I said “left chalk went to go get it came back you
guys didn’t want me anymore” (my mom
understands my sarcasm my dad not so much maybe its cause hes old :/ eh well
hell) she handed me her phone and Nina was still on it..i was too pissy so I
quickly stated when she asked if I was ok I said ”thank you..No I'm not and ill
call you tomorrow bye.”I didn’t call.. I went all through TuesDAY
not hearing a word from her….its been so different with her
lately.. IDGAF who I'm with my FAMILY is a priority ALWAYS! shes my family… so
why do I feel its different with her..idk and an hour ago at 0:00 12:00
midnight she sends me a message asking if I was ok and that I said I would
call… I said “Yep…and I was but changed my mind..i didn’t see this…but ummm I'm
going to beeeed annnnnnyway…” I sent that message I continued with”Niiiiight”
with no reply from either… so I sent another one saying “ J oh I will call you
tomorrow..i meant to send that in a text to be incognito” ( the site we always
talk on if someone is writing people can see you writing it sucks when you
don’t want to talk to someones whos been bothering you :/) still no reply…
Right now…I'm just…mad that I feel like I'm bothering her when shes with a dude
she likes…It’s a classic case of Please don’t let our friendship change because
of a third party L….
Anyway signed FOREVERALONE..
because I’m the only one of all of the people I now spend my time with who is
still alone L
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